Sep 26 2008
On dating
Originally written:
August 18, 2008
You learn a lot about yourself in a relationship. Maybe it’s who you really are. I know myself as being a hard ass assertive player as of late but some how in the presence of a pretty young girl, who knows how to kiss and is somewhat conservative I find myself letting go of it all. I’m back, reverted to my old ways of comfort and sloth. I’ve gained all I’ve wanted and am forgetting to maintain it. I have her attention. I have the physical contact so badly yearned for. What more is there to want? My head spins as I can hardly focus on a thought or an intention. I think: “those lips, I want to kiss them.” Because it’s the only thing I think I should be thinking about in the storm of distractions and the laziness of my mind that wants to so badly wander from her having my full attention. “Relax” I tell myself. “Head up, shoulders back” to portray confidence. “Breathe deep.” to slow my heart rate.
