thecompassrose

I met ____ today. A girl I was so intimidated of but yearned to know. I often keep in mind the story of the primal ancestors and the camel, how they initially feared it because of it’s looks and size only to discover it was a timid creature, easily tamed. Such is the case here in that: she is the sweetesr person I have met. Such a soft spoken voice…I vividly remember the eye contact we held in my introduction. Such caring, sincere eyes. I saw myself transformed in them. She saw me as something larger than life. We’d made solid eye contact a couple times that evening in the gym. Have I changed so much? Have I transformed so much that she was intrigued and charmed by me now? I sensed her interest in her submissive tone and gestures, the gently shy tilt of head but focused fire in her eye locked into mine.  I am so thankful for having met her. The honest truth..I was nervous and took my time almost becoming self defeating in my thoughts, but, I was more afraid of not meeting her. (a sub feeling being that by not it would represent regress rathar than progress.) True north was eminant, I was nervous, I almost shook, anxiety was setting in but it was necessary for me to act in spite of this fear, this feeling. Having the self-confidence and awareness of who I am now only gives me that much more power and focus to charm those girls I find worth my time. There’s no effort involved with these girls. It occurs naturally. I’m so glad I met her! (I’m so glad I denied my fear and acted to prove it wrong) In such a perfect way too. Thank you

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